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I try to smile, but I know it is just not real.
I search my heart for happiness, but all I find is confusion.
I try to forget you, but my heart will not let go.
I am trying to stand strong, but my legs are weak.


I wake in the night, only to find I'm alone. 
I have wanted to cry, but the tears will not come.
I have screamed in anger, but you have not heard me.
I have whispered that I miss you, but it is lost to the wind.


I gave you my heart, and only asked for your love.
I have been the fool, to think it could last. 
I stand alone yet again, with only a memory.
I gave you love, and you threw it away.




I will heal in time, but not quite yet.
I need the pain, i feel it inside me.
I need the anger, that i feel right now.
I will find love again, but not with you.

To my Mom on Mothers Day

Although you have been gone for over 20 years, I still think of you every day, I close my eyes and see your smile, hear your soft voice, and remember how you look. I am the person today because of you, you taught me compassion, empathy, to care to respect, and above all else, to love. I was not only your son, you were my friend. I remember the soccer games when you would yell above all the other parents for me to play harder, and to never quit when I was feeling beat. I remember you telling me about girls, and how someday I would find someone special, because I deserved and angel.You taught me so many things, about life, and to enjoy every day like it was my last.

All these things made me who I am today, and for that I thank you, I miss you. I know you are with me everyday, I am never truly alone. Happy Mothers Day Mona Elizabeth Moore. I love you !!